.and.make.it.thru.the.dark.

day 3..

i was so shagged yesterday..work was tiring and manager gave me a proposal..and i took it.i noe it's a risk,but hey..i'll be getting more pay..i noe my family wont be too happy about it,since they wld want me to change jobs due to the reason of getting more exposure and bro wld definitely kill me if he noes that im still working at this insurance company..coz he was like.."give ur resume to big companies like expo..if u wanna study,work hard for it.get exposure,get high pay,then come look for me..then i'll pay for ur studies..."and now wat have i done??well finally my pay will justify the huge load i do every single day...morale will increase..but experience??i seriously have no idea wat am i to do with my life...sigh...

after work last nite,liza called..she asked whether i wanna mit up coz she's done with work..so we took the bus to my place and got ourselves sweet talk and cake..we're both pms-ing..she's been snacking,and i've been snacking..regardless the tummy screaming "I'M FULL!!!" we still pop nonsense into our mouth..pipi came with ally and decided to chill at mcdees..we talked and advised liz..and i couldnt do much as i understand her situation as i've been in that position again and again..so while i was stoning away as my brain was past dead,the radio played 'what about now' by daughtry..my eyes filled with fresh tears as that was the song me and ej used to listen and dedicate each time..i was realli missing him..and i dun want my strength to fail me..so i tried to shut the song and lyrics from invading my mind...which was obviously hard..

day 3's here..and i'm okay..rather than 7 more days,it's now 4 more days..how time flies us by...yet it's still far within my reach..i really miss him..too much that i ache..each night i watch his video of him playing the guitar..somehow i wish it's realli him physically playing the guitar in front me..but i noe that's hard to come by..just gotta wait...

thanks tsue for making plans for friday and saturday..baybeats,gfs,donuts and drinks..sunday off to get my ethnic customer with mum. -.- then after,in his arms again............ :)

i could only smile in anticipation..

happy wednesday,dudes.