.beauty.

day 5...i feel empty..

today's the ccas..and so everyone's suppose to report work by 8.30am,when usually work starts at 9.30.i woke up with a very heavy head..dragged myself to the toilet and have my first fag for the day..only then did i feel fresh..i wonder how i'll be since fasting month's coming.sigh...and on the start of fasting month,it'll be the day that he comes home..and i hope he'll fetch me after work..or better to mit me after dawn so that we'll be able to hug each other..yes,im anal when it comes to fasting..coz we gotta respect the reason..

called his mum last night only to get tears from her..she's doing well,just that at times it's hard when u gotta face the challenges in life..and some ppl can be so crude with their remarks that i wish i could just throw stones till they die just like in the book, 'kite runner' and the sequel..just so that it justifies the shits they had given to his mum..she did scold me for not calling..she was like.."i told ej's dad..if ej nvr call home,didi won't call.."hhahaha..sorry..was too busy with work that when i get back home,all i do is to have time on my own..

i dunno wat else to write abt..after work gotta rush to ct hall for baybeats with babes..and hopefully kudos to them time will pass by so as i'll be in his arms soon..i wonder how he's doing..how are u,ej dear?i hope u're well and training's not that hard..i'm missing u here..too much,baby..and i wish to be in ur arms..and to get ur tender kisses..just to see u physically in front of me,to hold u dearly...baby,pls hurry back home..coz there's something's amiss in me...

happy friday,loves..