.carpe.diem?.not.

A HUGE BITCH SLAP to zul. -.-
i swear u can be super gay.HAHAHAHAHA..

yesterday was my first encounter..well,prolly would noe wat i mean when i put night+office+only 2 ppl working at that floor..freaked me out and i think that either my imaginations had run wild eversince,or it's realli happening where i hear things upon opening the office door today.and it doesnt help that im on my 2nd day of period..prolly that had triggered it to well..'disturb' us last night..

all memories are still vivid in my mind..i read my past entries..and it was super detailed(i noe..-.-) that i could just relive it and re-enact my actions..im all smiles..it had been all smiles..eventhough there were so many times where we'd quarrel..but all's good..however...

to tell the truth,the past still haunts me..that 4 months into the relationship with him where all trust was broken and i felt so betrayed..people forgive..but can never forget..i dun voice it out anymore..i dun bring up about it..coz all he would say is that 'it's the past and i already apologised..' it affects me so bad it'll be brought to my dreams which will turn out to be a nightmare once i wake up..hence,paranoia and insecurity..okay.put that aside..

now wat's realli bugging me is that 2 weeks of him gng to brunei..whenever i read those lines again,it's like gawd!!how petty,dids..but the heart is somehow feeling something's amiss each time i think about it..they'll say dun think about it..and then wat?when the time realli comes?then wat?do i just go about each day as how it gives?no can do,huney..i gotta be mentally prepared for things..so that when it happens,i noe for sure of wat i gotta do..fug.it's making me sick to the stomach as to how ns is still and such a biotch!!protect the country my ass.we'll all be dead even before the men could hold up their rifle once war comes.or maybe not.*touch wood*

the days and time's ticking..for all i noe i'll be sending him off at the airport come 12feb..valentine's can kiss my blardy ass.i still blame him for my unhappiness.but i blame him too for my happiness.now how in the world can that happen??fugginhell!!

life sucks,and then you die.

happy friday,mofos..one more night of work,dids..
one more night..

.death.before.dishonour.

.cosmetics-less.

never ending war..

it's true wat my colleague said..the 4 days of holidays will pass by quickly,as if it didn't happen.i dread going to work..from the start of work,i cant feel my fingers..as though the nerve had died or something..it's weird typing..eventhough it's just 4 days since i touched the keyboard..nevertheless it was sucha great holiday,as time was spent with him..it's not enuf still..never will be..but it was satisfying as i get to cuddle and acknowledge his presence..

he fetched me from work on saturday morning..yes!!with his ibanez guitar!!damn sleek with his loved whammy bar or however-u-should-spell-it as we cabbed to our destination..he taught me 'tapping' and i played with the whammy bar..which was uber cool!! so after 6pm there i went off for home while he waited patiently at my void deck for me to shower and get ready again..so we went to have dinner at swensens and chilled out a bit..the pictures are still in the digicam,have not uploaded..so will update him with his guitar soon..contented, as he loved the guitar,happy 1 year gift to u,baby.."ESP" in 4 year's time,k..hehe..

off we went home as he sent me off,myself super pms-ing..don't like it as i perspire more and i feel super fat..so we met up again on monday..he fetched me at my void deck as we went to ct hall,suntec to mit his family..en route there we fooled around as most shops were closed and suntec was like a ghost town as everyone's celebrating cny..so we danced and jumped and gosh..it was realli that 'moment' where u feel euphoric,not caring the world and just have that time to be u..amidst the onlookers,the people sitting at the mini fountain inside..i gave an artistic jump and danced and he did the same..we smiled,we giggled,we laughed..till we reached the basement to meet my in-laws.kehkehekh..

god..i miss his mum so..as wawan got excited upon seeing us and we walked..to have dinner..most restaurants were closed,so we had dinner at swensens...AGAIN.i gave them all a treat and paid the bill,with his mum interrogating me whether i paid for it..and i had to keep it a secret coz babe said that his mum will kick up a fuss if she were to noe about it..we then went to carrefour as all shops were closed..needless to say..fooled ard again,i grocery shopped for my mum..well,bought coffee and dish sponges for her and air refreshener for my room.. -.- and ej's mum picked up koko krunch for me..thanks to ej who tricked me when i thought it was actually for his family.blardy..

we sent them off to the bus stop..(i realli love them) while ej and i head to esp..dunnoe why,but it's been a while..the crowd..oh god!!all i see was chinese!!apparently there was a show since it's cny..we sat at the steps and talked..that was when i received a text from rai..

10.30pm..we cabbed to east coast..greeted by rai and fhil as we joined bart and wati..talked nonsense and reminisce mine and fhil 'drunk' moments while they laughed their asses off..and ghost stories..nearing 1am..cabbed back home with rai and ej..he insisted on sending me first,then cab back to yishun..how sweet can he get,realli..ej and i sat at neptune..we talked about future,the present and our career..it was realli a good and matured conversation in things that we realli wan2 achieve..it was then it fell upon us that it's gonna be real hard..but regardless,we'll still have each other to fall back on..

hands playing and feeling dazed..we didnt get back home only till afternoon..i cried and voiced my thoughts..that 2 week's not gonna be easy..it'll be difficult emotionally..a kiss and a very long hug..as i fell asleep in his arms..

now,i gotta start doing my work and stop going through websites..

happy thursday,starlights..

.nothing.can.keep.them.apart.

and so what's left..

i knew this would happen and i knew how it's gonna be..i took this job as i pounced on every opportunity given..and lady luck was my angel as the director agreed to the salary i wrote eventhough it seems ridiculous to me..on top of that the allowance and benefit pulled the best outta me as i agreed and joined the company..a new project to operate the company 24/7 due to overseas clients and self being a broker's company,would have to liase with the insurance companies which has 24/7 hotline as well..therefore me and another collegue works night shift.

it's already a month since i started working here..time was scarce for me now as i get too exhausted end of day..hence time didnt permit me to socialize much and the hours and minutes gets shorter in each call that ej and i make.

himself in camp,only booking out on friday/saturday,myself working till saturday morning..when it's his free time,im off to bed..and when im otw to work where we can talk,he'll be busy..and before his lights out,i'm busy doing my work..i would be lying if i were to say im not missing him..in fact i miss him much more now..my entertainer had left me..no..work took over my life and only source of entertainment,love,him.

im in dire of him..but the conversation just now had made everything so much harder..when even how much u'd push it all at the back of ur mind,the whole situation would arise eventually..and his mobile,having no reception made me frustrated as that was my free time before i clear the huge pile of work on my desk..but he called,right smack in the middle of myself already having the momentum of from one document to another.which of coz flamed the torch of war..i've been very nasty and well,sarcastic.i hate myself for doing that..i wouldnt put a finger on pms..coz im suppose to control..hell,i'd tried that too many of a time which eventually load up the baggage..so *pfft! to that and let's just say that i gotta either go for counseling session or anger management..not healthy,yo.

although there's been ups and downs the whole week,i still miss u,baby..
and i love u...
regardless...no matter what..

xoxo
ur lady.

**and to HID:
the bf joined army in july 08..mono-intake,4SIR,chua chu kang camp..
Charlie:rifleman downpes to storeman to company quartermaster..

.obsessive.

when there's nothing...

eventhough i didnt sleep well yesterday,i was unable to sleep still today..hence...the pictures..well i guess it's self-explanatory.

back to work now...

tra~~

.black.gold.reign.

to the violence..

im happy for you as Charlie got an A whereas Alpha and Bravo got Cs..im happy coz u contributed so much cleaning up the store and making sure there's no speck of dust..and amidst all the tire in your voice and the crankiness in you,you still do your job..even when you booked in,being the only storeman available,you knew your responsibilities..and i am very proud of you,my CQ..well done,baby... (=

online shopping is addictive...i knew that,hence i didn't even bother gng through the websites that has offers and shitzits..but then,some idiot just had to add me in friendster with their website address being their shoutout.i looked at the pictures..oh so cute!!!hell,i clicked the webpage..found myself shopping online.fug.and it's so tempting to purchase another..it's all super japanese outfits,nah..not kimonos..but the clothings they sell are super jap and effing pretty..

since i'll be shifting house (again) to pasir ris this time by june,ppl had been coming to my house with their agents..i cant even get a decent wink of sleep as my sis will barge into my room and wake me up and tell me that ppl are otw..fug...i had 2hours of sleep just now..not helping it's only 2.02am and i thought it's past 4am..

i realli cant wait to see my babe..i cant wait to see his eyes light up in delight as he hold the ibanez guitar..and thank you for accompanying me to shop..guys dun usually like it,u noe...hehe...

god,i miss u..

happy wednesday,peaches

.in.4.years'.time.baby.

nothing but your t-shirt on...

eventhough things were sour last week,he made the effort still to cheer me up and met me right after he book out before i go to work..the way he held me and the way he kept looking into my eyes made me acknowledge the fact that he realli misses me..i bit back watever retort and the ego in me and held him too as time was precious since it was in 15mins time that i gotta be at work..hence we parted ways as he went off for home..

i shouldn't have silenced my mobile as he gave 15 missed calls on saturday afternoon..was so shagged after work that i slept near 6pm,when that was the time we were supposed to mit.my head was spinning as i woke up abruptly and started to rush..did not help when he took a cab to my place..coz he said.."im late.." when i think it was sssooo me being late..so i had to rush...even more.. -.- pipi and i had a tiff..i nearly dun wanna mit him..i cried over the phone as i felt freaking shitty and had not even feel as though it's supposed to be a day of celebration for our 1 year and no way am i suppose to ruin it.yet...

we hugged and kissed as we took a cab to orchard..did i say my pay was in..and fug..i've nvr received a whole lotta money..seriously..i was so shocked,i thought that someone transferred wrongly to my account..but no..it's MINE!!regardless,he paid for it as we bought tix for movies and had dinner at cafe cartel with the worst service i ever get in my freaking entire life.for a quick dining (so i think) place smacked in town,they shouldn't have china nationales working who don't noe English except to say.."one moment."and then??nothing..happily walking ard,and myself expecting her to get another staff to serve me..fug no..her "one moment" means.."i-dun-understand-u-and-u-can-fuck-off".wat did i do??lash it out.

see..the service was slow eventhough the food was nice..we had ordered dessert and specifically told the staff not to serve with our main course.so after finishing the latter,we asked for the dessert.that stupid china woman asked me to wait.she didn't ask another staff to come to my table..20mins pass by..5mins to our show.fug.ej went to the dessert counter..he said that they were still doing our waffles..i was too pissed,i got up and lashed it out to the staff doing our dessert..coz she was chatting happily and was doing her work slowly.it's not like as if u're putting whipped cream on a man's body,u noe!!it's damn ice cream can just squirt it all over!!so when i told her that we've waited for too long and we're in a rush.can u be faster??only then she did she really gather speed.and it amazed me how her speed accelerates.i stormed back to my table,ignoring the stares of the patrons around that counter.i didn't even enjoy it coz i was fuming mad.

had a fag and bumped into zhi wei and ryan..in which kak ain and the kids and her cousin came after..and so we were crazy enuf to crash into the theater..not realli,since we paid for the tix,but we were late(blame cafe cartel) and nobody was at the counter where they tear the tix.happily ej pulled the entrance strap and we rushed in,giggling..i swear i thought it could get us into trouble,balls..but nothing happened,so phew to that!

then after we bought 2 heinekins and a pack of fags for me..ej wanted wine..but since it's been a while since i drank,well let's just get beer instead..so while walking,we hear someone calling out ej's name..waddayanoe..zee and emily..and she said that i lost weight.zee asked if im on drugs..no..and no,i didn't feel happy hearing the loss of weight..coz i noe that it was the unhealthy way of losing it.spent the nite and cabbed to swee lee...which was closed.

hence,saturday i'll be getting his ibanez and let's go shopping!!!!!!!!and let's have dinner at 'the vilage'..coz i noe u wanna go there and im craving for their crepes.

my colleague just farted and it stinks like shit.

happy tuesday,loves.

.your.weakness.makes.me.sick.

more words you can say..

you think it is that simple to just let go of someone.no.it's not.not when the memories flow freely in one's mind and was brought back; reminiscing.was it guilt that was felt?im not too sure..all i noe is that it is of an indescribable emotion that bolted in me..like mixed feelings which made it hard for me to single one out and put a defination to it.confusion.

it is easy for you to tell me that what im upset about is ridiculous.it is easy.but it's not for me..i dun even noe whether i've opted for auto-roam for our lines..sure i can always call and ask for it..but..*sigh* i dunno..i just cant seem to think about anything and i cant feel anything.is that good or bad?after being upset...now,i feel very much distanced from you..hence the emptiness in my heart..somehow..maybe im being too petty about it..but u gotta understand that it is of a shocking news,though i see it coming..but i dunno,ej...ask my heart..don't ask me..coz i dun even noe wat the heart's saying..

everything is not okay..2mrw is already saturday..suppose to spend our time together..to celebrate one thing we looked forward to..though it was 1 month expired..but now,i ain't anticipating for anything..and maybe it's better if we dun see each other anytime soon...so that i can cool this head and heart of mine..i noe it's not ur fault..then let me be alone just for this time...

you noe i'll still chase after you...everytime..everytime..
but just for now...let me be..

happy friday,all..

.till.the.27.

where do we go from here..

im sick as hell yet im at work right now..came,dumped my bag on the table before i ran out again to puke.fug...when i came back,i was so happy coz i didnt see any files on my table..which means,no work?!?!only when i head to the room was i informed to do other stuff...for the CLAIMS dept.since when im working for them??fug..some stupid work of filing.fug..im dreading to do it..i just finished one pile,while there's 28923489725 more piles to go..okay..exaggerating there..

ej woke me up just now..and then he sounded pissed..myself with sleepy voice asked him wats wrong,didnt wanna tell me...until when i just applied my eye make-up did he tell me...

"baby..im gng brunei 2 days before valentine's..."

*speechless*

since when time pass by so quickly?omg..i was crying..note,eyeliner,mascara,okay...im not upset about not celebrating valentine's with him...hell,we've had too many occassions we celebrated this month itself...im just upset coz he'll be gone for like 15days...in a foreign land and how am i to survive?who'll wake me up before 5pm everyday?who'll talk to me once i finish work and add on to my bimbotic-ness?who'll call randomly or text me???i cant do this..seriously i cant..hence i told him that i cant talk to him and shall just call me back later...

did he call?did i call?

no.

coz we both noe we're both too upset about it.

he had always said that ns is hard...army is so hard..all these complaints before pop..sure..i could somehow feel how pressurised he is..but after from a rifleman he downpas to storeman due to his ligament injury,it is much simpler.regardless,babe..watever that affects him during ns,it affects me too..watever that he thinks is so fucked up,it affects me too...if he were to say that he is suffering...baby,im suffering too..and i've been suffering coz it aches so bad to just see you once a week,babe...fugging once a week.coz sunday u book in again..and we spend the whole saturday tog...is that enuf?heck no.and now u're gng off for 15 days..sure it's JUST 15 days..but it's not the same and wont be the same...i have nobody to blame except the saf.i have nobody to blame except them.but can i blame them?no.so let me be the brat that i gotta be and blame it on you.or me instead.fug.im just too upset about it i dun even feel like celebrating our 1 year come saturday.i just dun feel like seeing you again anytime soon...coz i cant see you for 15 days..wat difference does it make.fuck hell breaks loose and fucking fuck that bull.

.related.unblooded.

..that year..2007..

so wat about you?

confession was made as everything was poured out..hesitant.yet it gave a clear picture at the end.people move on..people get another partner..hence the other gives up.isnt life more like who comes first?as the saying goes 'may the best man wins.'hence any regrets?no..

if i knew back then,probably my life would be different.but as shy as one can be,holding back things that ought to be known and to be heard,hence who's at the losing end?playing cat and mouse as things were being told..'read in between the lines'..as one urges the other to be open..many hints and probings..yet nvr had it been as clear..due to that?you had too many of a best gf..confusion.

and so one day the confession was made.appalled?no..i read in between the lines..i was told..but u didnt come any closer...hence my decision..somehow after telling you about the engagement,i could hear your voice falter regardless your 'wow'..heart being so heavy and guilt hovers me as i knew somehow it breaks some part of you..but you wanted to noe..

if i ever were to turn back time and choose...well,you're still dearest to me..but he's my one and only..and that,cant be changed.and so it took a year for you to tell me...and it took me a year to be straight to u that yea..i was too..but that past year,i was without a companion...and now..be happy for me..coz i wouldnt want anything that can ever break me and him..and i noe u wont do just that..coz you're a true and great friend indeed..

.nothing.else.matters.

at this time..somehow...

i miss my dad..it's been about 8 years,2 months since he left..well,passed on..and i would say at times i tend to forget about him..but when i think about him,i miss him so damn much..it's been a long time since i talked about him..and now,his twinkling eyes set upon my mind,right smack in the middle of work.hence i could no longer do work no more..

a very humble and generous person with lines that crease whenever he smiles..a good thing,as i noe he had lived his life in this world..i remembered hating the fact that if ever God were to love him more,wat about us?as selfish as that sounds and as astray i was towards religion,he was the only person that i miss and love so much,apart from mum..

no words could actually express how much he had meant to me and how he had made each of us to be as pious as he was..yet,things tend to fade..hence ceased..i wonder..would my feelings be the same as those whose parents had divorced?i think it'd be different..due to the fact that each parent are still living...yes,i hate to hear families get separated..not by God's will but their own..coz they dun even noe how much it means to still have both figure by their side..i envy and i wish that there's someone there that i could call 'dad'..coz i miss that..yet,nobody could ever replace the love my own dad had for us family...especially me..

from my upbringing to the morales he had taught..i had it all in mind..instilled in one's heart..but as mature and wiser one gets..wat about the past that had taught us?that had trained us?tends to forget..hence mistakes..hence regrets..and i wonder..does dad look upon me whenever i do any sins?an unperfect person with flaws that will always make mistake,regardless how pious you are..will i be forgiven?from my own dad?from God?

i wonder if dad were to still be alive,would he be happy of how our family had achieved..with eldest sister having 3 kids and pipi having 1 and marrying george..with brother working in qatar,and myself..well able to feed and fend myself now..and mum?ur everlasting love for her as u show how much u love her openly..he love kids..i remember,dad..you love ur sibling's grandchildren..yet u were unable to see nor touch ur own grandchildren..wat more love..but dad,they noe who u are..and i bet when they were born,i noe u're smiling..coz u saw them..and u'll protect us...and u'll noe for sure how much we've all loved u as much as how God took u away from us...i love you,dad..and in forever times,i'll say it all over again..all over again...and that,i miss you..

to those who still have both parents...you wouldnt noe when's the time they'll be gone..or when you'll be gone..take it from me,it's nvr and wont be the same losing someone u love..especially when he was the one who held you once you were born..forgive..cherish..love..embrace them..coz u live life once..and when they're gone,there's no turning back.

ayah,remember this?

*pinches nose..*

"SNORES LOUDLY"

i realli miss you...

.i.dont.noe.wat's.wrong.with.me.

snap,snap,snap...

i am not in the mood right now for any funny moments nor interruptions in a conversation.coz it's plain rude to do that and the indecisive mind of yours can screw me up so bad,that's when i'll start to snap.and yourself being ever so annoyingly irritating(if there's such meaning) makes me ever more mad.simply said,get to the point and stop pondering over the same thing and telling me wat ur decision is and changing it in each call.coz i just wanna make u happy,but it irritates the hell outta me when u keep changing your mind.and it's no longer funny.i mean business.

i slept the whole afternoon away while he watched tv..head out and went to town to have our dinner.note,we didnt have breakfast nor lunch..had breeks as above and super yummy and full.carried our filled tummy as at the right moment,my wallet's zip broke.great.hence he bought me another Guess wallet as above..before that he sneakily placed my 'BlackXS' perfume in my bag which made me squel in delight.and of course,my japanese brand mascara..which i had fun putting it on his lashes..hahaha..super dramatic,u look gay,boy..

met up with shadows as they had a band meeting.yes...i sebok2 only..but i didnt even listen to their conversation as i was super engrossed in my book, 'Plain Truth' by Jodi Picoult which is a MUST READ!!!hence after much fooling ard at Borders,off we went home as wan,sid and zahid beings arses fooled at the platform..my train didnt come..so i took the same train as them,towards yishun which i simply took a cab home,being ever so shagged and look like shiet.i regret wasting money on cabs..gotta stop that.seriously.

so i got home at 2am..and wat time did i wake up?4pm next day.holy shit..i've nvr slept like a pig before..waking up as late..and that night..i couldnt sleep..finally sleep found me at 9am..and ej was scolding me for not sleeping as i gotta work at night..

so here i am...after an hour of not doing anything that's gonna lessen my work load,i shall continue this pile of being a saddist by typing a depressing letter to tell the client's employees that they are not covered for their various policies due to health.and it is very scary wat sickness some pple have.*goosebumps*

i spit blood for the past 2 days.and i feel so weak.and i gotta stop snapping at him and being short-tempered..then feeling sorry afterwards..i gotta stop being so mean..but he gotta stop being annoying and indecisive.

hell.i miss my babes..

happy monday/tuesday,loves.

.blackxs.

3 hours of sleep.

i am so sleepy and i have a lot of work to do.out of boredom,i took those pictures.and above,is the view i get,sitting at my workstation.overlooks boat quay..pretty awesome,huh?

ej is sucha darling..he bought me a particular perfume in which i've fallen in love with..the smell musky and seductive...waddyanoe..he called,confirmed the name...and well,bought it.that made me uber happy since work is being more than a bitch.ej just had to add on that smelling it makes him horn*..now i wonder whether it was smart to put on the perfume each time.hhhmmm...

i dun get enuf sleep,i eat 1 meal per day which gotta last me till the next morning and the whole week it's been the same routine.bumped into stevie which he notcied of my weight loss...i am happy,yet it's an unhealthy way of losing weight which totally turn me off..

imma end work at 7.30am later...and he's sweet enuf to fetch me..

i shall rant again another day..

till then,tra~~

.i.just.cant.get.you.outta.my.head.

i am...

it's 4.39am..i just cant take it..my eyes are gonna close if one more time i stare into nothing..the view in front of me is fantabulous..i get to see boat quay from here and the lights,lights,lights...seriously..i am super bored and sleepy...

the above picture was just taken seconds ago and i'd agree that i look like shiet!i sssooo can see those eyebags calling for sleep...let's see wat i've taken to keep myself awake...2 cups of coffee,1 cup of milk,2 sticks of fags,chewing gum,1 strawberry jam and mineral water..and NONE worked.

i cant wait to mit the ghumbra...he'll be sending and fetching me come book out day..and on saturday we'll have out time alone before we do any of our plans..and i sssoo cant wait for next week..it's gonna be awesome...and there'll be restaurant and music which sure i so cant wait..in which i'll get him the guitar when my pay day kicks in..

i've listed a few things that i need to get when i get the salary from this new job im currently working..and i still dunno whether it's realli a need,or want..well,more like want..but hell,let's just say it's a need..i am so rambling nonsense.anyways...i think the digicam will come in handy,thanks to wan for being the abrupt person he is by hanging up with a 'that's all??' sheesh!and of course more shopping and food,food,food..not forgetting it's time for some facial treatment.and cosmetics...and shoes..and accessories..okay stfu. i just saw a drunkard puking after much staggering.enuf said..

i shall go for another fag at 5.30am.

CAN'T POSSIBLY TAKE IT ANYMORE,BALLS!!!

.baby.you're.all.that.i.want.

and so it began..

i am so sleepy rite now..it's only 2.31am and i still have about 6more hours to go before i can blissfully sleep on my awaiting bed..second cup of coffee,yet my eyes are just too heavy to stare at the screen..

above are the pictures taken over the weekends.topmost would be outdated new year pic,where we watched fireworks as said in the below entry..and the second and last pic was on saturday out with baby,sid,amber and hid.yes..that's amber..see how big she had grown??a very cheeky girl i must say..and yes,she wants me now.. :D coz when sid's carrying her,she would hold out her hands to ask me to carry...then she would ask for ej...and then back to sid.yes,that kinda annoyance,but super cute.

met up at ps as ej wanted to repair his dad's acoustic guitar,and sid just knocked off from work...then we took the bus to have dinner at spize and bus again to lanson..which was pretty empty,except for a couple who's making out practically the whole time we were there...

just now one of the directors gave a surprise visit which scared the shits outta me as i was gng thru other website and NOT doing my work.fug...suddenly all i heard was "siti.." freaking hell,i got a shock..who the hell comes in the office at 1.30am?!!?she talked and yakked..about security shits and stuffs like it which totally bores me as i just nod my head in a way out of politeness..hell,i was already stoning,wat more the meeting at 8am later on,balls..

i'll be nodding my head,yes...but nod my head,off to lala land..and yes,had a fag with zahid as i bumped into him while waiting for my other colleague..and he just got off work...and that had just reminded me to clear the pile of work...back to work,dids....sigh..

ej's sweet,as always as he had everything planned out..and someone's gonna be a lucky ass to get a guitar for wat?a year anniversary??hurhur...well babe...lotsa love...

happy monday/tuesday,sugah

.stroke.of.midnight.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

slaughterhouse massacre II was awesome.totally enjoyed myself during shadow's set,eventhough the bf was very far away from me as i was at the end headbanging with a new fren,andrew and of course has..as always i've nvr liked the idea of the hardcore kids scene..not that i dun like all their hardcore moves or 2 step or wat-u-may-call-it.but it's how they come in groups and they look so...i dunno how to describe it.but the whole gig was totally awesome..kudos to vulgate and shadows..i had so much fun,seriously.so eman approached me and said hello..god i didn't recognise him,balls..i felt bad..coz i was like.."sorry..but i dunnoe u.."he looked so much fairer and his body's toned..so we went home together along with mon..

so new year came and it was great.ej fetched me from home..well,we were not realli in good mood..we fought that whole week..he kept pissing me off and me pms-ing wasn't of help..so i was still being a huge biotch when i met him at the void deck.went to the doctor as i had taken mc from work..but it got me more upset as i had to wait for 6 ppl before it was my turn.and i was late!!coz i had to take care of ally who's at george's place.

so i ditched the whole idea of getting the mc and took a cab to river valley,shanghai road and george and pipi were all ready,waiting for me and ej.george's company had a new year function and it was a MUST attend event.hence he had to drag pipi.hence myself and ej took ally to dinner at spize which was opposite from their condo.how super convenient.we took the bus to city hall and joined the throng eventhough it's 3 more hours before countdown.joined zul,has,mon,naz,alif &gf which wan,shawn,andrew and indera came..with well..booze.so we waited for midnight..we talked,laughed and watched ally apply nailpolish on zul's nails and waited and waited..i daresay ally had so much fun..being surrounded by guys..well,most of her life she's like the thorn amongst the roses..only that gender wise is totally other way round..

fireworks!!!ej had ally on his shoulders as we shouted and watched the most amazing lights in the sky..beautiful..i was anticipating for one after another...it realli amazed me how it can separate and make a pattern of a flower and yadayada...gawd..beautiful..we waited for the crowd to ease for a bit before me,ej and ally made our way home..the rest?they wanted to wait for the first bus/train.if not for ally,prolly would've done that too.but the kid gotta be in bed and it was nearing 1am..

we actually walked,balls..from padang all the way to boat quay..finally after texting iris and receving a reply that 195 was no longer in service at that hour,ej carried ally and yes,we walked all the way back to george's condo.holy cow!!being the masculine figure (obviously) he insisted on carrying her...till we were quite near river valley that i finally hailed a cab.

took a quick shower and off we went to bed in ally's room..george was nice to provide us such great hospitality of waking up so late with a cup of coffee done by him...how very sweet of him..thank you..

actually im working rite now.todays is my official day of working in the night shift.i wish i could be on messenger instead.at least there's some souls for me to chat with.however it's just me and my colleague in this huge ass space office.had a cup of coffee,off to get another.god..i am sssooo craving for sausage mcmuffin from mcdees..and in the afternoon later i gotta be out with ej's family coz the mum's craving for the indonesian food or wanting to go for the buffet at safra..i foresee myself being ever so shagged.coz work finishes at 8.30am.fug....and to think i've only finished half of the pile that im supposed to do...

bro called from qatar just now while i was getting ready for work...talked to him about my new job and all..and he was so proud of me.. :) im so happy coz i look up to him due to all his achievements and how that totally made a difference in my family's life..and him being proud of me is just such an important thing for me..hence after reminding him to bring home the promised laptop of his,he informed that it's still under repair..so he said..."since you got a very good job which pays a lot,i'll buy you a laptop."HOLY COW!!!yea..pipi was all green with envy as im always getting treats from him..but when i showed my excitement over the phone he changed his mind and said.."i'll be getting a cheap one.so dun expect much.since your pay's a lot,you can get one with you month's pay!!dun even need me to buy!!"bubble burst.me being a brat and a good one at it started telling mum wat my bro just said..and informed her of how he teased me about singapore landtower(building where i'm working)being haunted..hence,a huge lashing that he got.HA!!!!

back to work now,bitches..gotta wake the boy up at 6am and he'll be fetching me later!!!woots!!i swear i miss him.

happy new year and happy friday,babes.
muah!!

ps:below's pics taken during the afternoon of new years'.