.death.before.dishonour.

.cosmetics-less.

never ending war..

it's true wat my colleague said..the 4 days of holidays will pass by quickly,as if it didn't happen.i dread going to work..from the start of work,i cant feel my fingers..as though the nerve had died or something..it's weird typing..eventhough it's just 4 days since i touched the keyboard..nevertheless it was sucha great holiday,as time was spent with him..it's not enuf still..never will be..but it was satisfying as i get to cuddle and acknowledge his presence..

he fetched me from work on saturday morning..yes!!with his ibanez guitar!!damn sleek with his loved whammy bar or however-u-should-spell-it as we cabbed to our destination..he taught me 'tapping' and i played with the whammy bar..which was uber cool!! so after 6pm there i went off for home while he waited patiently at my void deck for me to shower and get ready again..so we went to have dinner at swensens and chilled out a bit..the pictures are still in the digicam,have not uploaded..so will update him with his guitar soon..contented, as he loved the guitar,happy 1 year gift to u,baby.."ESP" in 4 year's time,k..hehe..

off we went home as he sent me off,myself super pms-ing..don't like it as i perspire more and i feel super fat..so we met up again on monday..he fetched me at my void deck as we went to ct hall,suntec to mit his family..en route there we fooled around as most shops were closed and suntec was like a ghost town as everyone's celebrating cny..so we danced and jumped and gosh..it was realli that 'moment' where u feel euphoric,not caring the world and just have that time to be u..amidst the onlookers,the people sitting at the mini fountain inside..i gave an artistic jump and danced and he did the same..we smiled,we giggled,we laughed..till we reached the basement to meet my in-laws.kehkehekh..

god..i miss his mum so..as wawan got excited upon seeing us and we walked..to have dinner..most restaurants were closed,so we had dinner at swensens...AGAIN.i gave them all a treat and paid the bill,with his mum interrogating me whether i paid for it..and i had to keep it a secret coz babe said that his mum will kick up a fuss if she were to noe about it..we then went to carrefour as all shops were closed..needless to say..fooled ard again,i grocery shopped for my mum..well,bought coffee and dish sponges for her and air refreshener for my room.. -.- and ej's mum picked up koko krunch for me..thanks to ej who tricked me when i thought it was actually for his family.blardy..

we sent them off to the bus stop..(i realli love them) while ej and i head to esp..dunnoe why,but it's been a while..the crowd..oh god!!all i see was chinese!!apparently there was a show since it's cny..we sat at the steps and talked..that was when i received a text from rai..

10.30pm..we cabbed to east coast..greeted by rai and fhil as we joined bart and wati..talked nonsense and reminisce mine and fhil 'drunk' moments while they laughed their asses off..and ghost stories..nearing 1am..cabbed back home with rai and ej..he insisted on sending me first,then cab back to yishun..how sweet can he get,realli..ej and i sat at neptune..we talked about future,the present and our career..it was realli a good and matured conversation in things that we realli wan2 achieve..it was then it fell upon us that it's gonna be real hard..but regardless,we'll still have each other to fall back on..

hands playing and feeling dazed..we didnt get back home only till afternoon..i cried and voiced my thoughts..that 2 week's not gonna be easy..it'll be difficult emotionally..a kiss and a very long hug..as i fell asleep in his arms..

now,i gotta start doing my work and stop going through websites..

happy thursday,starlights..