.or.rather.a.hanging.phone.

i miss ur eyes...

i envy all those blogs i went to..those dotted pinks,the flowing words and the layout and utmost attention to the place where they care for,the place their mind plays a twisted game and the mind speaks of hate.those emotions of growing love and the contentment each time they meet with their frens..and those times they need to make a point they gotta write it down..and i was one of them.but now,this blog seems sucha waste and it's been left unattended.prolly just once per month that i'll update,or not i'll be busy visting other blogs but my own.

that everyday blogging and everyday "i can't wait to write it all down" or that "fuck who cares this is MY blog,MY page" kinda shiet is like ssoo over.i dunno why..i miss this,but each time i go to this page of mine,my itchy fingers will then turn to facebook,or messenger.or prolly will be on the fone and just close this window.yes,i've abandoned this.prolly i've grown old for this(oh i've turned 22 last month) or maybe i'm just pure lazy.yea..guess that's it.

words use to rush thru my head like an escardille of thoughts..like a train with gushing chains churning and choo-chooing awaiting to be typed out.my fingers used to express and my heart feels at its best.but now...died?i dunno..i miss that though..

that poetry making,that lashing,those profanities and of course about love...about the things we did,about the places we went...and about my dear frens whom i miss..i do not noe why i've lost all of these...all those profanities even(in this blog.in real life im still the same-.-)or about him which when i read past entries i'll find myself smile silly..i miss eyes being glazed,stuck on the screen,reading about me and him...now,im only reading about other couple,other ppl's life,but my own.like how u can pause to reminisce,blogging sure is an easier way to do it...but i guess there's only a thing or two that stopped me from writing it all down...that rocky time with him..wouldnt wanna read it again...but i dun wanna delete it.oh wells...

if u miss me,i can tell u for sure,i miss this.so be good,i doubt i'll post something again..anytime soon that is..but i guess for now let my mind type it down..coz it had been bugging me for quite a while,of why am i neglecting my blog.

till then,bitches.