.within.ur.f*cking.self.

so wat happened....?

happy 9 months..i can't be bothered anymore..yest i didnt make any effort in calling nor texting him..only him calling me and myself at the end of work..while i was downloading projects to be assigned to my colleagues he gave a call and told me that he's bored..his mum went out and he had to take care of his younger brother..and so i asked.."so what do u want me to do?" he said that he wants to go out..asked "with?" he said out with me..and so he said once his mum comes home,he'll go out and meet me..

remember me saying i can't be bothered in asking him out anymore and he should make the plans not me?well..since he did,i agreed to mit him..FUCK!!

he called again and told me that he can't go out the next day,in which he has session..so he'll substitute to go yesterday..i was like huh?thought u're gng out with me..fug yes,i gotta be understanding.but tell me,fucking tell me how am i to understand when this had happened too many of a time?it's like he was the one who asked me out.HIM.not me.HE was the one who wanted to mit me,to kill his boredom.and alas bail out on me?!WAT THE EFF!!i was so pissed off..always.ALL THE EFFING TIME this will happen..it's like im so happy that i get to mit him..and then he had to give a second call to inform that it's cancelled???for session...fug ej.FUCK.

he gave me multiple hang ups as the conversation hung in the air..i was still effing pissed off and god noes how much i wanted to punch something..and my heart in a knot full of rage..since 6plus yesterday evening..all the way till now,no calls nor texts from him..and for myself,i dun wanna be bothered anymore.

9 months my fucking ass.it's all the same.all over again.

btw sorry for the profanities,dear readers..happy thursday,all.