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when life is..

i dun feel like blogging but rite now let's just write it all down for memories' keepsake..brief,yet i noe it'll be etched in my mind after readin it all..on friday after work he fetched me at loading bay..suppose to follow him for his jamming..but i was upset and i did the most stupidest thing ever..yes,i walked off from him again.fug..i noe i shouldn't..but i followed my emotions too much..sigh..sucky..and yes,i did gave him some profanities bfore departing..i was sucha bitch for doing that..and almost i wanted to end it all..end of the day i took back my words..i noe for sure i needed him and it was all out of anger..im sorry..

.saturday.
we went out and had our dinner at ps.waited for zul and apom and we got ourselves couple ring..cheesy,i noe..very cliche but hey..i trust that this ring will bring us to the dreams we have..and im very much happy with it..waited for sitt to finish work at cotton on and we all went off..bumped into azri at platform and we took the train ride home..

.sunday.
initial plan was to go over to his place..but decided to cab to our destination and i can say that that was the best ever!!okay..prolly u guys already have things in mind of wat happened,well the sins are between me and god.and it wouldn't affect ur life now,rite?hence the body connects as profanities were thrown only to see each other in hunger..thrash it all..

.monday.
he books in today..i spent last night talking to him and coaxing his upset self as he do not wish to return to camp..guess that 10days was pure joy for him despite the fights we had.he was very relunctant to go back to camp..he sounded so sad and i wish i was next to him at that moment to hug him better..that was the only 2nd time i hear/see him being sad to go..we talked from dusk and he was already in the bus otw to camp..tried to converse in a cheery voice and fought myself from falling back to sleep..finally he had reached his camp..

he called while i was in the bus otw to work..he's been posted as a rifleman.and now's the time where i dun feel like blogging...as this is wat wan text me "it's the worst vocation anyone could get. gng in and out of the jungle nearly everyday. as usual book out on weekends. very lucky to get a friday book out, if that happens."
for the rest of his ns life he gotta do this.i admit im very much upset and cried in the bus..and i noe he has no control over it..but for the rest of his army life..gosh..and zul texted and said that rather than swearing at him for something beyond his control,i should be giving him my utmost support.yes...i noe i should be doing that..a glimmer of hope..i just need him back..coz i dun wish to see him only on weekends for the rest of this ns..i will be missing u....i am missing you..

joy,my love..bring back the smile..

happy monday,addicts.