.myriad.

a person's jovial..a man for himself..

woke up this morning with a great mood to start the day..the fact that it's friday and it's ej's pop,i opened my eyes with a smile..upon reaching my workstation and reading thru my email,this is wat i received from my manager..with regards to the proposal he asked the other time..hence my teamleader urged me to follow up with him about it..hence,this:

Hello Siti,

I would be more than happy to recommend you for contract but before that Dolly and I would need to sit down with you and we will need to discuss your KPIs as a CRO moving forward. Let's catch up early next week for this discussion. Thanks.

i was beyond elated as i noe that my effort had been recognised and instead of staffs approaching the manager,it was the other way round..kudos to myself..and yes,did i say i was beyond elated?last nite the guy that i texted with texted again..i wish it all to stop..things dun matter to u now..and i've stated my purpose by apologising on the past that had been forgotten..so let's just put everything to a stop.

i was happy..yes..i was..ej called just now..he had just finished his pop..i was giggling to myself..and i was so happy for him..well done,love i said..and then he said a few string of words full of news i wish not to hear..the fact that everything was planned and i was looking forward to 2mrw...the day that i'll see him on the whole full day...yet,it'll nvr happen..it'll nvr fucking happen.

call me petty,call me a brat.i dun care with wat brands been stamped.all i noe is that i hate false hopes.when one's aniticipating,i dun see a reason to burst that person's bubble..but bubble'd been burst too many of a time.and i'm getting too sick and tired of this.of getting this stupid feeling of the heart slowly cracking into two.and tears welling in my eyes and holding it all back.sick and tired of the hiccups in plans..coz it had always been like this..u nvr fail to ensure plans dun work out as much as u nvr fail to make me anticipate for that day.fug.

i'm too pissed off to begin with.fone's ringing.he's calling.eff off,okay?anw,it's realli disappointing.sure,we'll spend the night together.but wat abt the afternoon that had been planned?the restaurant i had in mind?the places that we shall go in the evening bfore we blissfully give our utmost attention..wat about it all?

dun go back on ur words,boy.

u noe how much i fucking hate.

.FUCKING.HATE.IT.

period.

happy friday.eff off now.