the truth about greater humanity is what we're oblivious to.Lucky,when we think about it.
my line's been disrupted due to outstanding amount.i fucked m1 bad..inclusive of the manager as i called on sunday saying i'll settle my payment on the 25th since that'll be my pay day.the person said okay.today i woke up and i cant text/call no more.that's when the lashing began.apparently my upcoming bill is like 900++ yes..fucking hell i was like wtf!!totally jumped outta bed when he infomed me of that amount..due to overseas calls..god..hence bcoz of the high amount they can't give leeway for me to pay on the 25..though it's only fucking 2 more days..or 2mrw,since it's already the 24th right now.so i think i'll settle this month's bill and just pay $900..so that that upcoming bill will be lesser..hell,i'd be left with only $1k.not enuf still to survive..well suffer now then later,rite?
called tsue by office phone just now and she laughed her ass off when i told her that my line's been disrupted.she laughed her ass off..yes,that's how much a bestfren she is..
i feel super bored and weird without any texting or calling..in the end i see myself playing with the game in my phone.bah!
.cigarettes.and.chocolate.milk.
that song makes me high..with that drony and monotonous voice of rufus wainwright..everything seems to be all settled and cooled down..things had not been well to be honest..what with the m1 bill and all..sigh..everything just have to overfuck me.
she said that we'll be giving each other the cold shoulder for a few weeks or so..then only we realise things will be alright..hhmm...i dunno..somehow i thank god that i can't text no more..coz a reply was so promising to wat u just texted..it hurts still,really...it's weird to come to think of it..the last person i could ever imagine hurting me..but somehow u did..and it did..prolly a question of how so..but i myself cant answer that..just that the heart's real bruised at the moment..
regrets,regrets...no point of it..if i could turn back time,hell i'd redo every single thing i did wrong from the start of my life..but there's no use of it now..wat's been done is done...somehow i foresee that if ever i bump into u..i'll just give a stoned face.without hello nor smile..neither vengeance nor to spite..but i guess that's really me...to block self with a wall to not feel anything at that point of time..till u're gone..
i still feel like a fool..embarrassed and all..it's like u anticipate for the wrong thing,at the wrong timing..coz it'll nvr be mine.."dun wanna lose u just yet even as frens"..hell,i dun even noe im up to it for the former or latter..all i noe is that i should've taken back all the words that's been told and kept my mouth shut.it's nvr gonna be the same...and i cant go about bitching anymore with u..coz it'll nvr be the same..nvr be the same..if ever i see u again,that's the time that i truly dread the most..coz i noe that i've hurt a person or two..and that u hurt me too.
well,just continue with wat life gives,isn't it?
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