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sure is ironic..

guilt hovers me dampening the whole journey to work..he's been very nice as to send me and fetch me from work..from late nights to the early mornings..i am appreciative of that..sure is great to see him start and end of day..something that i doubt i could ever return as eversince being in the relationship or even while dating with him,he had always been sending or fetching me..and nvr once had he failed to break that routine..

it's already a year into the relationship..compromise and trust is the key to happiness to one's journey..but somehow without those two,it worked perfectly fine for me still..eventhough there were countless hiccups and tiffs,we still hold on to each other..

a woman's instinct's usually accurate..i dunno whether it's just paranoia or insecurity that got into me just now..or it's just that those lies are of an obvious..never a time that u'd put or understand which point im talking about..it's always the wrong assumption..like wat i've said okay to is done and over with.but when explanations are being voiced about wat had upset me,u'd still think of the former..it really kills to have u think more than a minute to the question i asked just now..wat was that "aku tau" about..

u said that watever u say wont make any difference to wat i think..of u lying..well,once bitten,twice shy..i'd nvr want to be in the same situation again where u lied through ur teeth and got mad with me for thinking otherwise..when actually wat i asked before were the facts.the truth.i dun want that to happen again.so trust my own instincts.did it get better of u?no.

the guilt that im having is that u've been such an innocent sweets..but each time..there's always something that upsets me..maybe i should control or stuffs like it..but how can i when it's literally right in my face..how come i'm not told of wat's going on...im not sure whether im over being mad with u..but i noe for sure is that i really wish and hope that u'd nvr tell a lie..hell,u've nvr told a lie..coz probably without compromise nor trust,i'd still be okay?maybe i will never be..

drifts..drifted..drifting..

happy thursday morning..