.the.voice.inside.my.head.

i'm drowning in my own song..

it's easier said than done..it had been sucha great time,yet everything should end one day..i've nvr felt like a fool before..this is the time that i should truly regret of wat's been done..and im ever so sorry for placing you in this kinda situation..

it hurts when someone literally rubs reality right in your face..though tried with careful words or even tone of voice full of remorse or sympathy..yet you know what's been indirectly said..not that that was the whole intention of that person,yet you knew it all along,but was just oblivious to it.chose to be oblivious to it..

all the 'ifs' and 'maybes' should nvr have been part of the question.the answer's there.right there.but i chose to walk one whole round..took my time..be selfish..took the opportunity to fulfill my desire before the question came right up to me.and when it did...i fell..and guilt hovers me like it always do..when u noe that u've hurt a person or two..

there's never a point that we need to make..never a chance to even try..but regardless,we thought we did..eventhough,end of the day things are still the same,though now left broken..so wat was the point of even doing it?to see the outcome when we noe there's none at the first place?to see wat was left when history was made?there's no point at all..there's nothing there..nothing.

so why am i hurting?why isit hard?what happened to the frenship we forged after that incident of thinking.."u let me hang loose"..wat happened to that?will it come back again after all that had happened?or will it be awkward for u or me to say hello when we bump into each other in the streets?will i still get that "hello" each time i'm down,without even telling you?or will it be the end.

i told you...there was a beginning...now's prolly the end..but the middle's all muddled..confusion..but now the middle's history..regrets?i do..

and im ever so sorry..