.i.wanna.lie.on.your.chest.again.

sleep well my angel..

he called!!!and i sssoo could hear his excitement in his voice..he passed his firing..woots to that and he missed me so..blardy..he said he couldnt concentrate coz he was missing me so much and he was thinking of me..hurhur...sssooo parntart one..haha..

i started being annoying and he was so patient with me..it felt realli gd listening to his voice..i realli miss him so much..and he said since he's on half day 2mrw,he'll fetch me at loading bay after work.YEAY!!!!!!!so happy,okay..i realli love him..he's my life..seriously..i wouldnt wanna trade him for any other..and word,i dun even flirt nor think about any other guys except for him,eventhough he's away in camp and i dun get much attention,but honestly..all i think about is him..

i realli cant wait for time to pass us by..i want 2mrw to come soon....cant wait to be in ur arms,baby..let's take more stupid pictures of us for us to see,okay..hahahaha...'cashier'.HAHA

happy thursday,bloggers..

.descend.the.shades.of.night.

angel's wrath...

with regards to the entry on my spaces.live,i was feeling pissed yesterday...and today..eversince monday whereby he didn't call me at all..me and darf were very upset..though he did say that he'll be doing life firing,but i realli wished that night that he was able to call.so ard 11plus went down to mcdees to mit pipi and liz..as when the clock strikes midnight,it'll be pipi's bdae :) and she doesnt noe we had everything planned for her..so we headed to study corner and talked..oblivious to everything ard her and was clueless of wat's gonna happen.liyana,hakim,mas and khir crept behind us and sang her happy bdae..past midnight and boy was she surprised till she actually cried..we talked,laughed till it was nearing 2am..gave her the gift me and liz got for her and yes,she was glad about it..hurhur..

i waited and waited,yet still no calls received...slept at 4am..i couldnt sleep at all actually..i kept waking up thinking my fone rang.but it didnt...the next day didnt go to work,hence the blogat spaces.live..i bummed at home and had a good rest..unfortunately my mind was in full mode as i was anticipating his call..yet,it nvr came.except sufi did call darf although it was nearing midnight,after much coaxing with the sargeant.im still disappointed and honestly,today didnt start off well..i just need to hear his voice.that's all.

im stuck with a lot of projects..after finishing 63 data at fast speed and still i had to hit 50.fuck.i was pissed with my teamleader.i didnt talk to her the whole day.and i was near tearing the fact that i dun like being pressurized.fuck her.seriously.i was so pissed just now.everyone can see that.

happy wednesday,bitches.

.thru.all.the.shits.in.life.

u noe wat...screw this.

im in so much pain right now..it hurts...again.fucking again and it's realli pissing me off.wat the fuck is gng on,i have no freaking idea..last thursday i went to the doctor.upon hearing when i can't poop,i'll puke,he said it sounds serious. so he checked my tummy..he gave some pills..so i popped those pills.i was able to poop some the next day..but it still continues being a biotch.and guess wat...i just puked just now coz i couldnt poop.and yes,im getting ever so worried coz the doctor wasnt assuring when his forehead formed a crease when i told him i puked.and wats worse is when my colleague told me an 'enlightening' story whereby her cousin had the same case as me and she actually was warded and had to go for surgery.oh how comforting. -_______________-

can i just slice my tummy open to take out all the junks and shits in my in blocked intestine!?!?!?fucking hell i cant stand the pain anymore!!!! and btw,painkillers?it didnt help.

.metalingus.

he smiled and laughed..and i smiled with glee...

he fetched me at loading bay on saturday..and i asked him to run through the int coz i can't wait to be in his arms..and he did..i saw him running towards me..aaww,u silly boy..as we hugged and he ogled..ggrrr..so cheeky..and we sat for a fag..took some pics,talked and i just cant stop smiling as he's right there,in front of me!!:) he realli took care of me as i was so self-conscious..i felt near naked..he chose the necklace for me at bullet then after we took the train..my silly boy just can't stop being silly..god..i swear my sides were aching from laughing..gosh..missing him rite now..

pips,george and ally went off to thailand for a short getaway as george couldnt be there on pipi's bdae which falls 2mrw..so the trip was to make it up to her..hope she brings home stuffs for me..:) initial plan was to mit zul and wan after,but we were late and they were going off already,so it was cancelled as me and ej went off to kfc to eat..i thought my pangs are more than over..but as i sip my pepsi,the tummy grumbled..and it ached again..i was having cold sweats and just felt like passing out..but thank god i didnt..the sweetheart sent me off home..thank you..and so he asked me a question...and i was overwhelmed..of course,baby..of course..

.sunday.
woke up late,at last i had my beauty sleep and got ready to mit him..i wanted to hug him so bad..but we can't as he's in his army uniform..in the train we passed by kranji and one of the factory was caught in fire.god..billows of smoke were covering the sky and the huge flames got me pretty scared..i was scared for them..wat if there's ppl trapped inside??i was near tearing..ej assured me the firefighters will do their job..since there were like more than 5 trucks..so we reached lot 1 pretty early and decided to eat at ljs.darf texted and while eating,she and adik ipar came and join us.i swear ej and sufi looked the same.both in uniform and shaved heads.hahah..took more pics and off for a fag..and yes,he did hug me at last..when we reach the bus stop,realised they were late,in the end they cab back to camp..and once i waved gdbye,i was already missing him..gah!!!babe...!!!:(

darf and me chilled for a bit...and she told me about 4 yrs time..and im so happy for her!!!oh god babe..congratulations!!!we were being so 'emo' coz we were already missing our bfs although it was only half an hour we had parted our ways..otw back home,my tummy was being an ass again..cold sweat and it realli hit me real bad..i was in so much pain i felt like fainting.again.i was alone and i knew i had to be strong..so i endured all the way back home..

past 10pm,still no calls from him.alas he did..and he asked a random qn,just like how he did on saturday night..and now,it's already been estimated.i could not be more happy than to hear him question me.i would love to...and today i woke up feeling super happy..policyholders have yet to burst my bubble and wats more is when ej's psp is with me and i've been listening to my fav songs and artists.from oi to punk rock to death metal.yeay!!

if on friday i get my pay,can we pls go to spaggeddies?i swear im craving for the lasagne..i love u,baby...

in 4 years time...:)

happy monday,mrs damato..

.yeay.yeay.yeay.

he's home!!!!!!

ej's back from camp..booked out at 11plus just now..and he'll be fetching me at loading bay and yes im wearing that red top..woots for that,sure as hell im gonna give some loving to him coz i miss him loads...with hugs,kisses and loves...I MISS HIM,GODDIMWITS!!

happy saturday,stars..

.contact.centre.department.

dress down friday.
theme-charter colours!:)

.swooping.wings.

taking back...

last night rushed home from work as bro wanted to treat family to dinner at 'sedap restaurant'.i swear i've put on weight..my cheeks are so chubby and i noe the first thing ej would do is to pinch it.-____- i dun wanna be fat.. :( the tummy had been such an annoying ass lately(as complained in previous entries) yet i still feel hungry..prolly it had not digest properly and i've been forcing myself to either shit or puke.no,i've not gone bullemic.god forbids..

bro went off at midnight for his flight back to qatar..huggd him gdbye and said my thanks..that whole month of him being here is sucha great thing that could ever happen to family..felt so complete and esp the trip to genting and kl..the family realli bonded well and the relationship had grown so much stronger..thanks,abang..for sure it's gonna be quite different at home now he's gone..but hey,the family had sucha great time with u..although it was just a month u're back in homeland.

yesterday ej called while in the cab otw to simpang bedok..he sounded so happy and hyper while for myself,wished that i could get more privacy as mum was beside me and i couldn't talk so freely..boo to that,but it's gonna be 2mrw that we'll be meeting.i'm so in the 'i-so-can't-wait-to-see-you-again' moment right now..i realli miss him..and i can't wait to get his hugs and him making me laugh..cherish the ones u love,even if u're given only a chance to be with them..can't expect to depend on them so much..as they have other responsibilities..sure,attention's needed or one will feel empty and lonely..and one shouldn't go to the entent of doing hurtful stuff to urself nor to expect a whole lot just to get his attention..hey..even if they're not there,doesnt mean they love u any lesser..so smile,babes..and u noe who i am talking about..

happy friday,2mrw i'm meeting the ghumbra!!