Happy Double 2 Birthday!!
i got out from the cab as before that i rushed and started to pack everything in my bag..i got ready within 30mins,which was the fastest speed i could go..and i waited,and waited for that lone cab to drive me to the airport.as expected,since nearing midnight all went into hiding just so they could charge us more..hell,money wasn't an issue in my head...all i noe was that i just gotta see him.
i woke up with a start,thinking it was 9pm still...only did i realise it was past 11pm..i knew he gotta be there by 2359hours..checked my cell,loads of texts and missed calls.only 1 text and 1 miss call from his dad's cell.i called.his mum talked to me,cajoled me and interrogated me with 'wat's wrong'.i felt too much hurtings from the morning and it was then i started contemplating.
of which is better?the heart that feels or mind that speaks?the one empowering the other is the only answer to wat we do in life..out of will and knowledge that we're doing the right thing.hence,i saw myself getting ready.the mind speaks or regret and pure hate if i were not to see him.he called.
"u dun have to come down.im gng in already."i felt pretty dazed.but i noe watever it is,imma still be there.so lady luck was on my side as a call was received and his flight will be past 3am..hence,i went out of the house.
the cab zoomed and sped away as we almost hit the 'flying' cab next to the us.it seems dramatic,all the last minute plan to send him off,with danger ahead of any possible collission..it's so cliche but this is reality,baby..it all really happened.
his parents greeted me with a smile.a hug was thrown and i find myself gulping down the string of words..the parents went off as they were gng to malacca at that hour.we head to the smoking area as he intertwined his fingers with mine.i felt different.i pulled back and held back.
a whisper of "happy birthday" as it was 3mins past 12am..downcast look and gazed on the floor..pulled,hugged and i complied..we rested on each other's shoulders,our bodies against each other and the rise and fall of our chest became one.he snuggled in my hair as i felt his breathings on my neck..
he didnt wanna lose me..i didnt wanna lose him either..but wat can i do when u hurt me too much?i gave in.i foresee myself being lonely and a need to have a dose of him every single day.i knew i cant just leave and walk away.too much pain,yet i came back for more of it everytime.too weak to carry on alone,too weak to walk by myself,too weak to console my own emotions when thing are wrong.i need him.i need to have him.i gave in.
we had more than an hour to kill as he needs to be in the gate by 2.30am.planned to go off by 1.45am..from starbucks to coffee beans..as i ditched my plan of getting him the bday cake bfore sending him off due to the quarrel we had,settled at coffee beans and got the single raspberry cheesecake.and a candle which i brought along from home..a quiet birthday,i'd say..we talked..he responded.our fingers intertwined again and the ring was placed on my finger again...
we kissed,we hugged.a kiss to my forehead,as he walked to the gate,off to taiwan..i waited and waved till i cant see the back of him and went a level down.i sat.i thought.he called.we talked abt things that i want him to do..his own safety..his well-being being taken care of..to make sure he calls...texts given to lads and babes and a text for him..finally,i made my way back home.
*this post was suppose to be done by 10 april..it was drafted instead coz too many things happened.
so hope it was a happy 10april for all of u..
xoxo
i got out from the cab as before that i rushed and started to pack everything in my bag..i got ready within 30mins,which was the fastest speed i could go..and i waited,and waited for that lone cab to drive me to the airport.as expected,since nearing midnight all went into hiding just so they could charge us more..hell,money wasn't an issue in my head...all i noe was that i just gotta see him.
i woke up with a start,thinking it was 9pm still...only did i realise it was past 11pm..i knew he gotta be there by 2359hours..checked my cell,loads of texts and missed calls.only 1 text and 1 miss call from his dad's cell.i called.his mum talked to me,cajoled me and interrogated me with 'wat's wrong'.i felt too much hurtings from the morning and it was then i started contemplating.
of which is better?the heart that feels or mind that speaks?the one empowering the other is the only answer to wat we do in life..out of will and knowledge that we're doing the right thing.hence,i saw myself getting ready.the mind speaks or regret and pure hate if i were not to see him.he called.
"u dun have to come down.im gng in already."i felt pretty dazed.but i noe watever it is,imma still be there.so lady luck was on my side as a call was received and his flight will be past 3am..hence,i went out of the house.
the cab zoomed and sped away as we almost hit the 'flying' cab next to the us.it seems dramatic,all the last minute plan to send him off,with danger ahead of any possible collission..it's so cliche but this is reality,baby..it all really happened.
his parents greeted me with a smile.a hug was thrown and i find myself gulping down the string of words..the parents went off as they were gng to malacca at that hour.we head to the smoking area as he intertwined his fingers with mine.i felt different.i pulled back and held back.
a whisper of "happy birthday" as it was 3mins past 12am..downcast look and gazed on the floor..pulled,hugged and i complied..we rested on each other's shoulders,our bodies against each other and the rise and fall of our chest became one.he snuggled in my hair as i felt his breathings on my neck..
he didnt wanna lose me..i didnt wanna lose him either..but wat can i do when u hurt me too much?i gave in.i foresee myself being lonely and a need to have a dose of him every single day.i knew i cant just leave and walk away.too much pain,yet i came back for more of it everytime.too weak to carry on alone,too weak to walk by myself,too weak to console my own emotions when thing are wrong.i need him.i need to have him.i gave in.
we had more than an hour to kill as he needs to be in the gate by 2.30am.planned to go off by 1.45am..from starbucks to coffee beans..as i ditched my plan of getting him the bday cake bfore sending him off due to the quarrel we had,settled at coffee beans and got the single raspberry cheesecake.and a candle which i brought along from home..a quiet birthday,i'd say..we talked..he responded.our fingers intertwined again and the ring was placed on my finger again...
we kissed,we hugged.a kiss to my forehead,as he walked to the gate,off to taiwan..i waited and waved till i cant see the back of him and went a level down.i sat.i thought.he called.we talked abt things that i want him to do..his own safety..his well-being being taken care of..to make sure he calls...texts given to lads and babes and a text for him..finally,i made my way back home.
*this post was suppose to be done by 10 april..it was drafted instead coz too many things happened.
so hope it was a happy 10april for all of u..
xoxo
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