selamat hari raya to all fellow muslims..maaf zahir dan batin dan harap halalkan semua makan minum...do forgive for all the wrong things i've done and any profanities that had been thrown to any of u..to any jokes that seems personal,pls dun bear any grudge..coz it's unintentional..all in all,do have fun for it's a whole month of visiting and closing the gap with ur closed or far ones..and...PPPAAARRRTTTYYYY!!!
im at work..on the 2nd day of raya..i'm the only muslim working now..the rest took mc..blardy..yesterday was so tiring..only 4 houses that we went to..and i only got $9 out of it all..oh wells..i was too darn embarrassed to receive anymore money from my relatives..i'm working and i'm old enough..so whenever they wanna hand out,i'll just say that it's okay..im working..haha...shy,la..
it had not been a good week..on tuesday after work i went to snip ave to do treatment,colour and trim my hair..ej fetched me at 5plus at the hairdresser's and off i went home..it didnt end off the way i had in mind...first day of raya was kinda shitty..ej lied..i am now thinking of whether something's happening behind my back that i dunno of,until the first day of raya..dude.it's the first day of joy and being on mercy to beg for forgiveness..i received a text..of a name that i don't even noe..and all was said was it was a typo error..my heart thumped madly as i think of the excuse given and how he would nvr text me with my name 'didi' in it..all would be affectionate names..so wat is this?an excuse?a veil to hide something that i'm not aware of?
im not feeling good at all about this..and he did say that he lied about something..after being defensive,after being angry with me for assuming when actually it's the truth all along..and when he finally admit,i felt like a fool..the stupidest person on earth..parts of the past came crashing thru as i dun wish to be that naive and stupid girl all over again..to be in a relationship full of lies and being cheated on..and wat happened after?beaten up by that bastard.do u think i've not learnt my lesson??doing all this just for one thing called love..to just bear with all the shits he had put me thru coz i loved him..and i dun want that to repeat again..ej wont beat me up.i noe.but to be lied and to be cheated upon,that is enuf for me to pack my bags and leave..i can flirt and kiss any guys while he's in camp.but i dun do that..i dun see the need to even think about doing that.coz he's my bf..it's contradicting isnt it?the fear u had,u're putting urself for it..it's sad..it's just so sad how stupid i can be,to be a fool in one's eyes that i dun do things while he's in camp..yet himself...i wonder how he managed his time in camp using the fone only at night,yet this can still happen...wow,ej..u amaze me..and i thought guys cant multi-task.tsk..
im still wearing the ring..im still thinking about u..and im darn a fool to even love u..i dunnoe why...but instinct's telling me to hold on still...for??
"i noe u dun trust me..and i'll do my best to regain ur trust...baby,im sorry"
happy thursday,liars.
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HIII!!!!!!!!!!! didzzz..
rememberrr meee??? :D
i think u have blocked me on MSN :D
everytime i try and send u an offline, it bounces back to me.. however..
i have got some news.. i MIGHT be coming to singapore.. :D:D:D
buttt there is a tiny thing.. mm i neeed a hugeeee favour from you.. could you please tell me what catch is there in getting a tuition grant from the MOE .. ???
i wanna apply for one .. and it says that i have to sign a contract saying i must work for 3 years in a company in singapore, could you tell me how will the work conditions be ? i mean.. will the salary be bad? will the job be too taxing?? .. also.. what if i hate the job.. what if i wish to leave it and do something else? would that count.. or no i am stuck there for 3 years?
andd the final question.. :D is there any other requirement to get a tuition grant? i mean like a % age or Grade requirement??
like the 12th passing %age should be 90 and the grade shouldnt be below A.. is there any such rule..
if only could you answer these questions, i will be more than obliged to you :)
oh btw if i do come to singapore.. i will stay there for like 7 years :D .. soo..i will see you grow up to be 30.. tehehehehhehe :D
btw.. nishank might be coming there too.. pray he does.. i badly want to be with him.. pray we both come there.. thanks again!!!!
omg!!no way babe!!!
i didnt block nor delete u..i've not been on msn for sucha long time..trust..lol..
anw,i'm not too sure abt the grant and shitzits..all i noe is that there is an age requirement..and there's no way to leave the company even if u hate the job once u're bonded for a certain time..
break the bond,u gotta pay the amount and that,my dear we're talking about a whole lotta 0000 at the back of the sum of money...
world's facing financial turmoil(working makes me aware..no,not a political freak yet) so rite now's not a good time,babe..u wouldn't noe whether company's increasing the amount to get ur loot.
and of course u gotta be one of the smart ones coz it's like being in the dean's list somewat..im not too sure honestly..u can check out with ur sch..they should noe about this and should be happy to help u out with it..
nonetheless congratulations and i realli do hope to see u soon coz we both noe how u're dying to see this country...oh gosh babe!!!!! :D:D:D
losta love..xoxo
hehe.. :) i wanted to go to Nanyang University Singapore.. have you heard about it? sure you must have.. its the second best college for science subjects in singapore.. and the 35th best in the whole world..
but i think my direction is still array!! :P i wanted to originally go to germany.. but my parents dont like the culture.. but now i am all over the place :S
so i am searching in places like japan, singapore(he {my love} might be going there), US, Australia and basically.. the most important.. UK..
there is also one more thing.. by next year (maybeee....) i might become a naturalised citizen of austria or germany.. MAYBE.. so if that happens.. then no need of going anywhere.. i wud just LOVE to go to cambridge or oxford.. or university of aberdeen.. and it wud become so f*cking cheapp.. i mean just 4000 dollars (annually).. and thats damnnn cheap.. but for international student its like 20,000 dollars.. mom and dad are willing to pay only.. 13,000 dollars.. so i am kinda stuck :D
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